Words upon your skin

So this is it? What we thought we couldn't live without?

you keep saying how easily I can walk away,

Fuck, can you even look at me,

let me hear you ask me to stay?

It's undeniable.

Every nerve ending standing on end.

just the way we wrote it,

Shit, can we even say we're friends?

Everything I've learned to love,

I've learned I've had to loose.

This ain't build-a-bear workshop,

we don't get to pick and choose.

You toy with me,

try and get me to react.

and I play right into your games,

I should have known I still gotta watch my back.

I let my guard down,

and you moved your pawns right in, check mate.

When your the one that runs away.

while what? I sit here and continue to wait.

For what?

That picket fence and house that you dream for us.

But that's your dreams,

I was perfectly fine, you already where enough.

Ain't that the problem?

that it's not me, but that it's you.

that has the issue with yourself,

STOP IT! the one fighting you is you.

So you roll the dice.

And you say that your all in,

poker face is your specialty.

but what do you really win?

You look around, and find that your alone,

everyone including me,

were not here,

we all went the fuck home.

So you stay there.

and stew in your casino of self built hate.

If you ever decide to fold your hand I'm just outside,

I told you that I would wait.

You carry mountains,

Ones that you were only supposed to climb.

all I wanted was to love you,

I'm a fool to think that you ever could have been mine.

You let your blood boil.

You let your emotions run the show.

but if no one is watching?

who are you really? Do you even know?

You say all these words,

betrayal, it never comes from your enemies.

you know all the right tricks

to drop me at the knees.

If those words you spit to the sky

were written upon your skin,

Would you still be beautiful?

tell me my love, would you let you in?

Fuck no.

So here is all I have left to say.

Some words of wisdom,

Don't let the door hit you on the way.

-LaurenAshley